A Large Clue

I had made up my mind that everything I observed & everyone who claimed to have the truth were what to believe with acceptance. But there was an exception. It seemed that evil side of the unknown was working too hard to spread confusion in each of our minds. And it seemed that their effort was worth the effect. It`s like an epidemic. Through chosen human being, evil had successfully invented truths that fitted our perception that made these truths to be accepted easily by the society.
I had said previously that everything observable & everyone who claimed the throne of truth were to believe with acceptance. I guessed I was right with that (together w/ the exception). But all of these truths shouldn`t be paid much attention with. Ninety-nine percent of the truths the universe could offer were just made to support and elevate single truth: the only truth that made sense and purpose. And to identify that truth, it`s just a matter of clues; not conviction.
I must admit that I had gone through atheism since my third year days. I was just a catholic in papers but not in thought and flesh. I was happy then because I thought I was free from lies. But since then, I felt coldness creeping into my very bones. I thought that it was a sign of withdrawal. But I was wrong. It was a sign of emptiness that had been telling me I was on a wrong track. I wasn`t sure about that feeling but that was what I thought I`d been through. If it`s not just because of that network (channel 45) and it`s method of revealing clues about what to believe or at least things that worth our attention and thinking, I was still in the dark and cold pit of atheism.
It helped me with this self-realization,
I`d been believing solely to what science books had been telling me about which were the truths. They`d been saying that humans were just the greatest product of chance and that the universe was just the biggest structure by the hand of contingency. These notions had pushed me down to a pit of conclusion: there was no God existing in the real world and that humans were here without any given purpose but to compete for food and survival.
But there was the news. These selected scientists and average human beings (the chosen beings that I had previously mentioned) who support and promote these truths had motives: money, freedom of doing immoral deeds or maybe even for popularity. They denied God because they didn`t want to live in His rules. And these beings were the culprit responsible for the victims like me.